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Friday, July 30, 2010

Dreams

All the books say that vivid and sometimes odd dreams are all part of being pregnant.

I realize going through this process myself, how little my sister actually shared with me about her pregnancy but I guess you just never know how much someone really wants to know.

But back to my dreams...
Sometimes they are so real they are scary. All my vivid dreams started in the middle of second trimester before that I would sleep a dreamless sleep. Then in the second trimester I got a few sexual dreams all about my hubby but sometimes they just felt so real and that was scary, because I would wake up in the middle of the morning and realize it was just a dream.

Then the other night I had a different kind of dream. I dreamt that someone broke into my apartment and shot my hubby and as I was struggling with the intruder for the gun I shot him. I started to run to get help and turned around and realized the guy wasn't dead but was going up some kind of elevator and I was left screaming by the elevator shaft door.
Then not too long after that dream, and who's to say how long, but all in the same night. I dreamt that a stranger was in my home and he knocked on the bedroom door while I was sleeping with the hubby...all I remember was being gripped with fear wondering who could be in the apartment....it was so surreal.

I don't like the dreams...I keep trying to figure out if they mean anything but all the books say it's normal and that it will pass but really I have never been much of a dreamer and I think I prefer it that way...

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Let the touching begin

It usually goes something like this.

Random Person: Hey, how's it going...wow you are getting big...how many more months do you have until baby comes?
Me: 2 and a half
Random Person: oh wow...you still have time. What are you having do you know?
Me: Oh we are having a boy, which is what we wanted..
Random Person: Oh ( they start reaching there hand out) that's good! (and then before I can stop them or even realize what's happening they are rubbing my belly).

OR

The other famous one is:
Someone sees me and gives me a hug and then after the hug they rub my belly.


Beware all you preggers moms...apparently there are no personal boundaries when you are having a baby...first that baby makes itself at home and then strangers are touching you left and right...it's almost like an out of body experience...never has my body felt so much not my own.

I honestly don't remember touching other pregnant woman growing up...I thought America was big on personal space and that a 10 inch invisible wall sound every person on each side...yeah well not so much.

Most of the people who rub admittedly I am acquainted with but it's a even weirder when my male acquaintances do it...

I mean would people still rub my belly if I was in a pissed off mood...would they get the hint that on that given day they should revert back to personal space rules? I don't know...one can only hope.

I tried to tell hubby about it because well he is my sounding board and he was like well you shouldn't be surprised. To which he adds if that was me, no one would be touching me...great thanks for the support buddy!

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Battle Scars

So last night as I was looking at my stomach, oddly enough I like to see the baby moving and see how my stomach pops out or ripples as the baby moves around. Anyway, I looked down and was horrified, even momentarily, there was two long stretch marks running from the bottom of my belly to the top part...to date all the stretch marks had been lower abdomen and nothing on the upper part...but low and behold there are now two...which i will be buttering up day and night because I don't want like the long ones...sign...my little one has left his mark...

Of course I had to tell hubby and show him, his reply, you are still beautiful to me. Ahh...the hubby sometimes he knows just what to say. Of course that didn't make me feel any better...because well I was still a little saddened by the marks but at least hubby knows that the road maps are cause by our little jelly bean.

Monday, July 26, 2010

30 weeks 2 days

How far along?: 30 weeks 2 day
•Weight: Last time I checked still the same as last week...if I can keep on that trend...I will be happy...I would really like to not put on more weight.
•How big is baby?: Jelly bean, is getting big based on how my belly and the amount of movement I feel - he's probably between 3lbs

•Maternity clothes?: Still in maternity bottoms, especially pants, I brought a few more maternity tops but for the most part I have the bottoms I purchased earlier in the pregnancy. It's nice that the bottoms still fit but the belly part is getting snug so I just fold it under the belly. I brought a few more tops at an old navy sale the other day but I just went up a size since I am not fond of empire waist tops and they are perfect for the summer light and breezy. Also, great sale going on at GAP, I think it ends today but they have some cute bottoms (and dresses).

•Stretch marks?: definitely...I blame my genes and my craving but too late to do anything about them now...so I will not worry about it.
•Sleep?: Yep, I am getting it...I still wake up in the mid-morning to pee but otherwise I am able to find a comfortable position due to U-shaped pregnancy pillow...I love that thing. I will admit I am tired of sleeping on my left side already.
•Food cravings?: non-fat soft serve or custard...it's probably the heat but any creamy cold goodness I want...I have found that I am satisfied with whole fruit frozen bars as well so my freezer currently has 3 box of those.
•Labor signs?: None!
•Belly button in or out?: Still in... I see it inching out a little bit.
•What I miss: Today I miss not being so large but also wishing I could have slept in...I went to bed early last night and woke up at a decent hour but for some reason I still wanted to go back to sleep.
•What I'm looking forward to: My last ultrasound in 3 weeks. I will get to see my little guy one last time before he leaves the protection of my womb and enters the real word. Can't wait. •What I am not looking forward to: labor...is it too early to be concerned...probably...I try to avoid the thought as much as possible and reading up on it like crazy.
•Milestone: Jelly is a jumping jelly bean and I love it...Haven't heard anything from the doc office about my diabetes test...so I am guessing no news is good news.

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Daddy freak out

Last Thursday was my first birthing class.

I missed the first class because I was at the beach or rather away for work near a beach.

Anyway, Hubby has agreed to go to birthing class with me which is nice, and something he didn't do with his first so it's a new experience for him. We get to class early and he's pumping up our ball and they are playing a word search game of the different stages of labor and the parts of the baby and women and all the names for what goes on during the process. Hubby is great at competitive things so he sails through the game no problem. Then the teacher puts on a birthing video...and hubby is fine making jokes and all...
The video is the birthing story of a man and a woman and their first child. It talks about the stages of labor and the things the lady, Deb, did to relax since cope with the pain since she decided to go drug free. Then of course it shows the birth of the couples baby girl and that part was gruesome even for me who's been there while a baby was born but I have never looked or seen the actual baby coming out because well it's a bit much for me...

So we watch the video and the couple talk about the bonding experience but also how difficult it was...lights come back up and my hubby is white as snow and looks like he's about to pass out. The teacher comes by and rubs his shoulder and he's like please don't touch me, I feel light headed and weak...I think I may pass out and he goes on like this for about 10 mins. I was hysterical...My hubby a man's man, he's macho can build a house, lay carpet, he's great with his hand and a manly, burly type man fainting over a labor and delivery video...it was too much. At first I thought he was kidding but he was serious. He even promised not to come to class if they kept showing the videos...now that part I know he was kidding about but still the whole situation was quite comical...my poor hubby...
I had to call my mom after class and ensure she would be there when I deliver my little one because I honestly don't think hubby is going to make it past active labor into the pushing phase.

Friday, July 23, 2010

Stranger Touch

Yesterday, I left work early and went for my bi-yearly teeth cleaning.

I like the ladies in the dental office they are really nice and sweet and always full of funny stories. My Hygienist is really sweet and we are close in age, thus we always end up talking about the oddest thing. Since they hadn't seen me since December they were all talking about having met the hubby, he was in there a few weeks ago for his oral check up, and then they realized I was pregnant so then talk turned to baby names. My hygienist spent the better part of my cleaning time talking about baby names, then the doctor came in and checked me out and was gone. I mean I know I got my teeth polished but it didn't feel like my usual clean and that could be because I have less plaque because of my regular cleaning or because we spent most of the time talking.

Then I go to pay and I end up talking to the ladies in the front for like an hour about there birthing stories, pregnancy weight gain and baby names. I was truly amazed. One of the ladies says go with the epi, but the other was like go natural she had 3 kids and did epi with 2 and natural with her first and she preferred the natural. I was surprised to hear that because most people would rather go without the pain. So there we are in mid conversation and we are talking about all my weight is in my belly and that's probably true, that and my arms but I am top heavy by nature so I gain all my weight upper body, which is harder to lose but such is life. And out of no where one of the ladies touches my belly. I think I stuttered mid-sentence but then keep going. Ok so she is not technically a stranger but I am averse to people just touching my belly...and it was the first person to do so who I wasn't like good friend or family...just took me by surprise a bit. I wasn't mad just caught off guard. Interestingly enough no matter how many pregnant women I see and talk to...I get no urge to touch there belly. I used to touch my sisters when she was pregnancy with my first nephew and she hated it...I figured most pregnancy woman don't like to be man-handled so I stopped. And now I know it's just odd having people run your belly...

Anyway, I have had my first stranger touch...can't say I am a fan but not hating it as much as I had anticipated either.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Whale of a time

Lately I have been feeling a little anxious about my little one.
It could be the heat wave last week and the constant heat that is making me a little batty. Or my need to drown myself in water or it could be that my growing little bean is getting bigger by the day. Whatever the case, not being able to bend over, or get out of bed without hubby's help or rolling over is a bit mind boggling to say the least. Never in my wildest dreams did I expect to be so uncomfortable. I mean the best position is sitting up or in a reclined position.
Not to mention, as of late every time I look in the mirror I am reminded of just how pregnant and whale looking I am.

Just today someone stopped me at work and was like when is the baby due. And then they would look at my belly and look back at me sympathetically as if to say...wow...good luck.

I don't mean to moan, it does have it's awesome moments like when the bean is jumping off the walls of my belly as he is now. Or when I feel him moving around kind of like massaging my insides...Yesterday, I went to Old Navy and got him some pajamas because they were having a 50% off clearance items sale. One of the pajamas says Daddy is my hero...all the mommy ones were in pink so I knew the hubby wouldn't pay for those...those are the good moments...

But the waking up at 3:45 and not being able to go back to sleep until 5 am or even realize I have fallen back to sleep is starting just a tad bit too soon. And wouldn't you know it my bean is up and jumping at that time in the morning as well. He seems to have the evening hours confused with the madrugada ( or the early morning hours). If I was sleeping I wouldn't mind but when I am awake...I talk to him and let him know that will not be acceptable post womb (as if he cares).

My little Jelly bean...can't wait to see him...I already know he's going to drive me crazy and yet make me love him to pieces all at the same time.

Today I start my 6 wk birthing classes...should be fun.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Diabetes Test

Yesterday I went and had my diabetes test done. I was really dreading the experience 1) because I heard dreadful things about the sugar water they force you to drink in 5 mins or under 2) I don't want gestational diabetes, and 3) well I am a big baby when it comes to needles I loathe them so any type of blood work makes me uneasy.

Anyway, I got up and went to the doctor's for my regular monthly check up and diabetes test. I am surprised to say the sugar water was not as bad as I thought, I expected something thicker and less of a liquid sort. It reminded me of orange soda without the fizz mixed with orange kool-aid. Not to say I would ever drink the stuff on a bad day or just for kicks but still it went down easy as long as I didn't stop drinking and just let it flow to the back of my throat.
As for the rest of my appointment no major issues. Baby's heart rate was great. I was also telling the doctor of some soreness in my abdomen...I think I pulled something when I lifted a suitcase on one of my trips and she gave me a small remedy and said I should be fine. SO then I just waited for the blood work and then left.
What I was not prepared after all that sugar water was the tiredness that came after drinking it. I had to take a 20 min power nap before going into work and then all day my jelly bean was bouncing off the walls of my belly. And for the rest of the day I suffered from a mild headache...odd. I usually crave sugar but clearly whatever is in that stuff was too much for my body to handle at once...I spent the rest of the day eating light and drowning myself with water.

The other aspect of my doctor's appointment that mortified me ( and yes mortified is the right word) was my weight gain...I have maxed out on the recommend amount of weight to gain and the baby isn't even full term. I still have too more months to go. Sigh...I wish there was a way to let the baby grow without putting on more weight...so I am completely bummed about that and have been thinking up strategies to monitor my weight gain from here out...clearly I won't be eating anymore of Rita's delicious frozen custard. And I will be getting on the scale to monitor my progress...Oh the joys of pregnancy.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

29 Weeks...MOVING TOO FAST!

How far along?: 29 weeks 1 day
•Weight: Oh...I have no idea...I worked out for 2 weeks during my convention but then fell off. Had a doc appt today... I have reached my max weight gain with 2 months to go...sigh...I need to start watching what I eat or I will still be carrying a toddler after I birth my baby.
•How big is baby?: Jelly bean, is getting big based on how my belly is but he's probably between 2 - 2.5 lbs

•Maternity clothes?: Still in maternity bottoms, especially pants, I brought a few more maternity tops but for the most part I have the bottoms I purchased earlier in the pregnancy and some khaki's I purchased 3 weeks ago for the convention from Old Navy that I absolutely love.

•Stretch marks?: definitely...I blame my genes and my craving but too late to do anything about them now...so I will not worry about it.
•Sleep?: sleep has been a whole lot better since I am back home and have my U-shaped pregnancy pillow...I love that thing.
•Food cravings?: soft serve or custard...it's probably the heat but any creamy cold goodness I want...I have found that I am satisfied with whole fruit frozen bars so my freezer currently has 3 box of those.
•Labor signs?: None!
•Belly button in or out?: Still in... I see it inching out a little bit.
•What I miss: Today I miss not being so large...I saw my profile in a mirror yesterday and was sadly disappointed...I always wanted to be one of those cute fit pregnant women and I have horribly failed. I had not idea being would make me so tired. I took 2 naps yesterday alone..
•What I'm looking forward to: My last ultrasound in 4 weeks. I will get to see my little guy one last time before he leaves the protection of my womb and enters the real word. Can't wait. •What I am not looking forward to: labor...is it too early to be concerned...probably...I try to avoid the thought as much as possible and reading up on it like crazy.
•Milestone: Jelly is a jumping jelly bean and I love it...Also today was my diabetes test...still waiting on the results but at least the test part is over.

Disappearing Acts!

Some of you maybe wondering where have I disappeared for a month.
Then someone of you may not care, but whatever.

Work has been kicking my butt.

Since my last post I spent two weeks working a convention hall in ATL and it was fun but also the most exhausting thing ever because I was on my feet most of the day. And I wasn't even in charge of the store but rather the cash management.
I must say it was interesting and completely different from what I do on a day to day basis so it was a nice change of pace, eventhough it took me a week a full week to recover.

And now I am at training down south in SC for a work related program. Can you say on the go...

I am still healthy, suprisingly, aside from swollen ankles I am feeling fine.
Back later with updates about baby and me and things people say to me that are completely inappropriate.